That's my story, morning glory
These last few weeks have been very boring for me. With dizziness that comes and goes throughout the day and pain from cramps and spasms, I've been stuck at home. Every. Day. Being in a car makes the dizziness worse. When I'm feeling okay I'll watch movies, read, play a video game, play my guitar, etc. Most of the time it's something real low-key. I really do love hearing about what's going on in my friends lives, but sadly my side of the conversation has been very dull lately. I haven't had much of anything to talk about...
Me talking to friend: "Oh, I already told you that I think my cat is going crazy? Sorry... well, did I tell you I beat this hard boss in my video game?" (not word for word but you get the picture).
I've just been wanting something exciting to happen to me so that I can share it with others since I love to talk so much. What I'm about to share wasn't what I had in mind but nevertheless I'm happy to finally have something to tell people. Something that doesn't involve my physical state or video games. My cat does pop up, but not for long.
I was up really late the other night. It was going on 1am and I was doing my quiet time in my bedroom with a dim light on. My cat was sitting next to me just staring off into space while I was writing in my journal. I was pretty deep in thought when all of a sudden I heard a loud THUD! in my room. Whatever it was kept making a loud THUD over and over. I looked over at my cat, who had this terrified look on her face, and she was looking up at the ceiling. I looked where she was looking and saw this 1 inch, maybe 1 1/2 inch, blackish/gray circle banging into the ceiling and the top of my mirror. I was kind of scared, more startled. My cat took off and hid in my closet as I got a little closer to see what in the world it could be. It turned out to be a giant moth! I quickly ran out to get our fly swatter. Now, this is no ordinary fly swatter... it looks like a tennis racket and when you push a button on the handle it generates electricity to zap the bug. You're basically treating the bug like a tennis ball and when you whack it you electrocute it. A great invention I must say.
I bring it back to my room and close the door behind me. I don't see the crazy, giant moth anywhere. I ask God where it is and before I even finish my next breath I look up at a long poster on my wall. Get this, so my poster is a painting of a girl holding a caterpillar and above her are about 6 pictures of it gradually turning into a beautiful butterfly. At the very top of the poster is the beautiful butterfly and right next to it was the crazy, giant moth! I couldn't believe it! I think he was trying to blend in. haha!
I reach up and hit him with the swatter and POOF he disappeared. I hate it when bugs do that. So, I'm moving all the stuff around where I hit him and he may have fallen but I'm not finding him. And then it happens... I feel something on my back under my baggy t-shirt... I flick the back of my shirt and out he sails into an open dresser drawer. He must've fallen on my head and fallen down the back of my shirt. That's all I can guess.
I then precede to zap him until he's pretty much dead, grab some toilet paper and then take him to the toilet. I don't know what compelled me to look at him before I flushed him down but I moved back the t.p. and looked. Much to my surprise, I thought he was gosh darn cute. Then I felt terrible for killing him. Really terrible! As he was being flushed down, I thought if that ever happens again I'll try to capture it and set him free outside.
So, as my gram sometimes says after she tells a story...
That's my story, morning glory.

action, suspense, drama,
action, suspense, drama, surprises! 2 thumbs up
Thank you, thank you...
Thank you, thank you... haha!
Nikki: Funny, but I really
Nikki: Funny, but I really homed in on your first paragraph. It was another glimpse into your everyday life, and it made me think. I'm very "tommrow" focused, versus "today" focused. And I don't want to put some frame around what you do day-to-day, but it struck me how much my "tomorrow" orientation might be rachetted into a "today" orientation, were I living with TM like you have. This is me, an outsider looking in, but in the insulation of my little "world" of work, home and church, I never realized how fast any plan you make for each day, much less thinking beyond a day, could be changed by how well you're feeling that day. People just don't know, including me. I can see all kinds of things being put on "hold", and wondering if God will ever pick-up the receiver, and talk with you about those "things".
There was one line in your
There was one line in your reply that just jumped out at me. It was, "People just don't know, including yourself". I often think and say that to myself. This morning I woke up feeling pretty good and made a big ole mess in my room of my stuff. As I was going through some of it I got so dizzy and felt like I was going to tip over while sitting on my floor. I had to stop what I was doing and lie down for a couple of hours. Just waiting for it to pass. It did and now I'm feeling pretty good again writing this reply. It's mildly coming and going now but better than it was a couple of hours ago.
Dizziness is more limiting than it sounds. And with it being a day to day battle right now it can be hard to explain it to some of my friends when for example they ask to go out for coffee with me. Sure I might be feeling fine at the time of the invite but there is this fear that once I get there I might tip over in the chair. Not cool.
I want my health back. It's been so long.
Dizziness
I remember twice when dizziness really incapacitated me. Once was at Santa Cruz, and the other was Great America. I forget what ride (or rides) that did me in at Santa Cruz, but at Great America, it was the then roller-coaster ride called "Top Gun." Both times, I was so wasted by the diziness, that I literally, as you described, had to rest until I could do anything again that day. At Santa Cruz, I was part of a youth trip, and had to crash in someone's van until I could stand again. The other time, I had to sit with my head down at a table for quite a while, before we ended the day, and I could drive home.
Not cool no, and that's why I wrote what I wrote. There's no one around you, except your mom, sister, and family who has seen the effects in you. And who knows but you about the experiences. So, from someone who can't walk in your mocashins, I am praying for the day when your, "I want my health back" will be a distant memory.
Thank you for sharing your
Thank you for sharing your dizzy experiences and I'm sorry they happened after rides. What a bummer! I loved Top Gun the last time I went. It's one of my favorites. And thank you for your continued prayers. I'm real blessed to have you and your family in my life. :)
LOL!!!!
All this excitement 40 feet away while Basil sleeps and Aly and I play games, oblivious to anything going on.
40 feet away...
Terri is your house even 40 feet long?
I guess that goes to show you are able to be distracted away for Nikki, in a good way, I miss all of you guys so much.
Nikki, I now can relate to how fast your condition changes, the other day when Annie needed the car to go see you and then 20 minutes later she was coming home because your condition changed. That really bummed me out because Annie always seems to be in a better frame of mind after spending time with you, but then that has always been the case since you two have been meeting together...
I will continue to pray, and get Shandy over there with some of the groupies, a good thing, he brought to Church this morning, they are are an awesome group of people...
I miss you and the rest of
I miss you and the rest of your family so much too! I'm so blessed to still have Annie in my life. This really could have made our friendship fade but it hasn't. I sure hope I can see you soon and everybody else at church. I deeply miss everyone. And thank you so much for the continued prayers.
It's looonger
Believe it or not our little slice of Heaven is actually 60 feet long. Then 12 feet wide but we have an extension that's another 12 feet wide so I guess in it's own wierd way, it's a double-wide. Well, yeehaw for us!!!
My way of getting away from everyone is putting my ear plugs in. LOL!!!!